everything new since then.
the transformation of getting myself thru
to carrying something within
due in march
a child
of mine
more than likely
my one and only
however, before i think on the future of adding to the den let me just embrace the one step

scared as i am
sometimes it takes a minute to realize
that it's real
it's inside
and i can feel it
it's so strange
tiny as it is
i can feel it
i know something is there
even if i didnt know
technically
i would know

heard the heartbeat
so much more then my own
so much stronger
and healthier
and not weighed down with experience and hurt
a different kind of survival
a new kind of living
that i've long forgotten
about just living
not thinking out every detail
taking every day as is
without the fear of what the next might bring

it's normal
i know
to have these fears and insecurities of abilities
but i really wish i could stop myself from doubting and be enriched by the idea that i'm the mother
the earth
the goddess
the creation of all mankind
it's an amazing concept
and true
if we can only grasp it and open ourselves to