to be happy
happy be to
be to happy

is to be
awake
on edge
in the water
wading
watching the stars
reflect
the heavens
back at clouds
in silver lining rendevous

apart from the world
two become
united
to create
a multitude of bliss

~ listening to jerry, tell me, how sweet it is to be loved by me. and there i am.
want to smile wide, devoted, sway manical, and thank you . . . baby

we groove the same. tune in and out to this beat and onto that.

can't wait for the summer months
to shed my socks
unbuckle my shoes
and feel the earth under my bare toes
my nerves
sighing with relief

when i speak your name . . . .
when i see your stroll . . . .
that's what love will make you do
no matter how hard i fight it
baby im still in love with you

i can never feel as good as i do when i listen to his voice.
want to be a jezzebel angel
dripping innocence
lace and leather
rose and thorn

sleepy eyed

the song that trips me out
china cat sunflower
the words written a thousand years ago
on psychadelica
hipadelica
youre a delica
proud walkin jingle in the midnight sun

whenever i hear it i fade into the flurry of experience
had and to come
my legs are jelly
my insides drool
i am mushy
and miracled

Random Insight
Splatter
plotter
platter
pitter
patter
rain drop
reign dropped
vain cop
stain blop
tame mop
brain flop

am i boring you yet?
cause everybodys doing that rag.

early to drink
late to rest
i dream a dream without you in it

one of these summer mornings
i want to spend with you
lay on your arms
and watch the will of all the world
collapse
as though under our wishes
one foundation crumbling at a time

what i wouldnt give
to get one more second
with you

i wade in an assortment of ideas
and nuisances
of my own creation

dilly in the dally
the main stage
back alley
listening
never seeing
the action
that unfolds based on
words we meant to say
but couldnt
because we feared aggression

oppression
of my heart
depression
of my head
all kept
quiet
and
unfed

happy birthday to me.
thank you sean for the c.c. :)
truly.
wow.
:)
~
i've got everything that you want
i've got everything and someday i'll be better
i've got everything single thing you really need
separate love from addiction
its not the same thing.

i play piano & sing like a hummingbird
oh i forgot
hummingbirds dont sing
it doesnt matter
you know what i mean
~
and pearl jam.
last night.
blew
my
mind
.
reminding me of his presence.

night spent twisted up in hope
.no more upset.
heavy breath & fragile spirit
.dont blow it all this time.
share blankets, mirror some dream
.this time.
wake to hear the rain
.in the far off distance.
sunrise coming thru a covered window
.feel like a question is forming.
say good morning with a yawn
.i am free.
there are only the right things left to say
.it's only rain.
healing hearts & puddles
.come back.
i'll come home to this if you'll let me

.ive been reaching out today.
.from where ever you are.
.come back.
.and these days linger on.
.if i dont fall apart.
.will my memory stay clear.
.but the strangest thing today so far is you feel so close and i'm not going to question.
.i stay an open book for you.
.come the morning i swear you're next to me.
.come back.
.i'll be here.
~
.pearl jam.
me

parties kept us awake
conversaluted
front porch cave
escape plan

black swans & mirrors in puddles
your arm someplace on a hip
i've owned for years
never really knowing how
awake it could feel
until right then

driving too fast
on backroads
and dusty moons
earth salt
trickling in the tiny spaces
behind my knee
you manage to notice

you always noticed those things

sunrise on a lake we've been naked in before
flannel blankets & foggy dragon whispers
your hand a hundred years bigger than my own
with many more miles
to go
. . .
i read you pieces of che's journal
mixed with hints of sappho
love & concern
marry on the bed of a truck
south of all i'm currently trying to pull my stock from
time manages peace
and peace manages worth
maybe things will be different
give me
some rain
and
i'll wash away this hurt
i've felt awhile
i'll be all yours
come summer
. . .
we can spend the hours
in tall grasses
touching and touring
the countries
we've been in
wish to visit again
. . .
maybe things are different.
these days.

there's a man
on the mountain
asking me to come on
up
. . . a woman in the valley . . .

loving cups of exploration
navigation of the disorder
and fundamentals uncovered
explosion of mind & gray matter
create rainbow platters

midnight roses
that i aint never had before
. . . what a beautiful buzz . . .

dance like silly shadows
against an open sky
spill the memories
the magic
the maybes
till
give a little
drink
just
one drink

and i'll . . .

imagine
how good it will be
to surrender
to just a little drink

all i want is food and
creative love