its me. i did this. every bit. every second. every trace found. scraped. raped. mapped. and remembered....my fault. i win right? you said that. i win. you should just 'let me win'. and i do. so gloriously. i win.like a champion. standing with a shadow so.... intimidating. thats me. always have to be right real on this it yours you me like you remembered like an unplanted seed you do away with me given up on a whim blown from finger tips dirty unforgiving having been in someone else in the mean time thats me begging cursing the day i fucked up and will again and beg forgiveness it wasn't how i thought it should be forgive me and you wont cause youre a bastard with your lies building and i know every single one and i keep them hidden for you because i love you in a tiny box in my throat that wont open or absorb and you are forgiven on lonely boulevards as i beg forgiveness for being late

corrupt

you have corrupted me limb for limb with your words your whims your ways youre him cards and memory anniversary in 2's 20 something now siphon the martyr me in and face what's to come doubtless worry aside keep it all in stride

31

after 31 years i realize i dont trust my instinct and i dont think i've ever listened to it whats done is done tomorrow we start listening and shrugging more.