to s.s. when it was supposed to come out

and he just told me his wife was pregnant on the A train going uptown his right leg touched my left his right hand held my left i laughed because that's what i do when things hurt or i am nervous or i am gasping for air grasping for answer he rubs his thumb in circles on the important flesh that connects the thumb to the pointer "it's the thenar," i whisper. he is confused "what is?" i shake his hand out of mine i point to the flesh that connects the thumb to the pointer this. "i didnt know you knew everything." he laughs. i didnt know he was married.